Time is no thief of mine

Ain't nobody got time for that! is what I think when somebody tells me I have to put something else on top of an already overflowing to-do list. There are only so many hours in the day and, if you work up to ten hours a day. have a social life, maintain your health, call your mom at least once in a while and text everybody back it sometimes feels like your life is a container you are constantly filling until one day it pops. You buzz around like a feral fly on ecstasy until the stress gets to you and then-- well there is no time for anything other than crying in the shower- at least that is if you are me. 

The next best thing is prioritizing. So you make room for what is most important. The only problem is that it is only the things we have to do that end up getting done. I have to go to work, I have to finish that deadline. For any writer there is no greater inspiration than the last minute. The only problem with that is your long term goals tend to go to the bottom of the list. I want to be thin and healthy yet most days I decide that I just do not have time for gym today. I want to one day become a writer yet I decide today that I do not have time to write. 

What I make time for is most often the things I do not truly want in my life. I make time for a job that I am not entirely happy in. I make time for negative friends who create drama and I make time for relationships that hold me back. Yes, I am only human but it makes no sense that the things I truly want and need are what gets the least attention from me. 

I have decided that now is the time to change that. Instead of being inspired by a deadline I will be inspired by my goals. Instead of only dragging myself to the gym when the needle on the scale begins to rise I will try and constantly eat healthy and exercise. I will also try to change my job into something I love so the sixty hours I spend at work each weeks counts for something. Because a passionless job? Negative friends? Personal drama? Nobody has time for that. 

\I don't have time for this but I'll do it anyway. 

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